Hormones are fun!

28, almost 29 weeks pregnant and I think the hormones are raging. I've been especially emotional today. Emotional, irritable, and tired.

Did I mention I'm irritable? I've got so much on my "To Do" list and today I was just too pooped to deal. I've been running around like crazy this week, and still trying to catch up on the laundry I was all caught up on before the dryer broke and the kids got sick with a lovely puking stomach virus. Fun fun!

Anyway, the baby is really active lately. Lots of kicking and moving. Maybe because he/she is running out of room! (It would help to not lay in my belly sideways!)

I went in for an OB appt last Friday. Glucose test came out perfect, blood pressure looks good, iron was a bit low, which might explain the lack of energy. Or it could be the 5 kids. Who knows?

I mailed off a contract for a Doula today. I drove up to meet her on Wednesday and found out that I get a 2 for 1 deal, (kind of). She's actually a bit pricey, but I think she will be worth it! She works with my OB a lot and has a Doula mentoring under her, as well as another back up for emergencies. I really liked them both and as long as another one of their clients doesn't go into labor at the same time as me, I'll have two Doulas present at the birth. Talk about spoiled, right? ;)

Anyway, I'm relieved to have that done. I registered for a VBAC class in May so hopefully that will be worth the time and money! I guess all this means we are getting closer. I can't believe it!

Crying

I'm crying about the fact that my 14 year old son can't seem to (or won't) follow simple instructions even if it would make life easier for the rest of the family.

I'm crying because my 4 year old is just like her big brother.

I'm crying about the fact that when I told my hubby I'd reached my half-way point in this pregnancy, because deep inside I was feeling a little bitter that he didn't even know how far along I was, he gave me a freakin' high five.

I'm crying because I'm craving some food that's really bad for me but I couldn't even go out to get if I really really wanted to because it's snowing again for the millionth freakin' time.

I'm crying because I don't even know what state my baby is going to be born in or if I'm going to have a chance to take any refresher courses before the big day.

I'm crying because my skin is so dry my lips and hands are cracked and bleeding.

I'm crying because my husband is too preoccupied with his job situation to really even pay attention to me or this pregnancy. So much for a special last pregnancy experience.

I'm crying because I feel like I've already sacrificed a part of my "moment" and expectations when Madison was born, because my husband decided to start school the same week she was born. And he became too busy with school or work to really do anything special for the baby's birth...or my 29th birthday. And I so wanted something special to remember both of those days by.

I'm crying because my husband has been too distracted with work and life to notice that I'm really hurting right now, and needing him to dig deeper into who I am. 10 years of marriage and I feel like he's stopped trying to get to know me.

I'm crying because I'm letting every stupid little thing that shouldn't matter get to me.

I'm crying because I'm just dissappointed with how life is going right now.

I know it all could be worse, and really, I'm blessed beyond words, but I'm still crying.

I'm crying because I'm hormonal and pregnant!